My unravelling graceless grief
1 min readJun 10, 2020
A graceful unravelling of grief
It’s layered
You’re so graceful they said
You handled this amazingly, they said
My face strong but my hands weak
It’s a loss all over again
It’s a new view on what was
It’s a heart reshattered with a new stripe
It’s the shedding of another skin
Why
When I look in this new world did I feel lost
Not seen
Not heard
No eye contact
Are my eyes your unravelling?
What if they’re not?
The chaos
The cold and the rigid
The emptiness I saw
I longed to fill that once
Not now
Not ever
There’s no coming back
Even though my heart reshatters
Reckless
Internal
Selfish
Godless
Peaceless
You
A forever lonely beating heart
Searching
It’s not my burden
It’s not my love
It’s not for me
Gone
My unravelling graceless grief
